Better than a Hallelujah?

So to say the last few weeks have been rough, is putting it mildly. In fact, I have to say the last 10 years have been difficult really. There are so many decisions to make in the life of us Shaw's. We have went through financial strain, vehicle problems, family crisis, etc. It seems there is not an end in sight. I've decided that the devil must see our family as a threat because he keeps trying to pile it on and see if we fail. Fortunately, I'm a daughter of the King, the most High God, and I refuse to allow this failure to occur.

Last week, while my children were happily having a sleepover with my precious nephew, I was screaming in my basement that the devil couldn't win, he couldn't have my family, he wasn't welcome in my home, and most importantly, my God was bigger than him. I truly believe that there is a constant spiritual warfare going on all around us. I also believe that God relishes in our weakness, because He ultimately gets the glory.

2 Corinthians 12:9 says But He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore will I boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest in me.

Wow! God wants our weakness, He wants our junk, He loves me because of my faults, not in spite of my faults. My trust in Him allows His glory to be revealed in my times of trials.

The girls and I have, without thinking really, stop and sing every word of a song that has been on the radio lately. It is a great song, with a great sound, but today, the words spoke louder to me than ever before. In fact, I texted them to Clint and he loved the words also, knowing that it fit our needs perfectly.

The chorus goes like this....

We pour out our miseries,
God just hears a melody.
Beautiful the mess we are,
the honest cries of breaking hearts,
are better than a hallelujah sometimes

Isnt' that awesome? Even when we can't, won't, aren't, etc. GOD IS! It is very hard for me to give complete control over my life and those that I care about, even though I know God commands it. He desires obedience in His children. That's where He gets to work the miracles, the good stuff.

I'm broken to say the least. I have a heavy heart and not sure of decisions that need to be made. I don't have control and I need my God to provide. To Him, I think it is where He wants me and that is better than a hallelujah.